The Truth Behind A Poor Self Image

Did you know that over 65% of people in the world suffer from B.D.D, or for those unfamiliar with the acronym, Body Dysmorphic Disorder? It’s more common that people would believe, and I can honestly say that I have suffered with this view of myself for years.

Today I’m going to be really honest with you, because I don’t see myself the way other’s see me and that’s okay, I have learned how to handle this feeling and live with it. But to get to the point where I am at today, which is happy and proud of my body, it took a lot of work through personal development and exercise. I say exercise because I used to be the term “skinny-fat,” which essentially means that I was not healthy in a sense, but I was not technically “fat” either. I felt that any form of exercise would only make me look “manly” and if I ever did tag along with other’s who had a gym membership I would do maybe 20 minutes of cardio and some ab exercises then call it a day.

I refused to eat, I thought that if I ate too much then I would “get fat,” when the reality of it was I was eating unhealthily and very sporadically. Fast foods or frozen foods were all I ever ate when I did eat, maybe twice a day if that. On top of that I drank excessively, and since I hated/hate beer, it was always frilly girl drinks packed full of sugars. I was the epitome of unhealthy and because of these habits I also ruined my immune system, I was sick constantly with either a cold or the flu and developed some withstanding problems with certain foods to this day because of what I denied my body for so long.

What I saw in the mirror, was what I thought was attractive and pleasing for other’s to see, but I still saw a girl who was “fat” and completely unhappy, not to mention uncomfortable in her body. I saw excess fat where other’s could not, I saw pudge that no one else was aware of, in the mirror I viewed imperfections where there were none. There is no way to really identify where the stem of this view of myself came from, I don’t honestly believe that science can explain this one, but they will try to anyways.

Growing up I went through a “chubby” phase as most growing children tend to do, but I was ridiculed for it, made fun of constantly and developed a low self-esteem because of that. But I never lost my ambition, I continued with outdoor activities, sports, anything that I could do so I could “lose weight” and “get thin.” These were my thoughts and actions just at 10 years old….where I should be doing these activities just to have fun, which I often did still have fun, but my underlying thoughts were that participating in all of these activities would “make me skinny” and therefore more liked and accepted by my peers.

I grew continuously through middle school, still holding onto some baby weight, getting made fun of now for my quirky personality along with the “chubby” baby weight still holding onto my body like some kind of disease. I went through the skater phase, the emo phase, the preppy phase, all of those awful stages that come with trying to find out exactly who you are that all pre-teens go through, while hiding my personality from everyone and being someone completely different to just “fit in.” I was so excited when I finally got braces in eighth grade, surely they would make me more beautiful and confident, then I could truly be accepted…just 1.5 years until they were off! (try 3 years)

Deciding on which High School to go to was an easy choice for me, I needed a fresh start where people wouldn’t know who I was. Tired of being picked on by the same people everyday, I went to a school where no one would even know who I was or what I looked like previously, this was my chance to start over and I took that chance. I took Personal Fitness the summer entering High School, to prematurely make some friends and earn some credits and I started my freshmen year thin, FINALLY.

But with that, came the pressure of staying at my ideal vision of thin. By the time I got into my first year of college, it only got worse and I only became more and more unhealthy. I skipped meals on a daily basis thinking that this was the right way to stay thin, which of course I now understand that the right foods provide you with the nutrients you need to fight off illnesses and support your immune system.

March 2012

I was unintentionally letting my body down, not only physically but mentally. I was unstable and in a terrible emotional state, constantly making excuses as to why I was always angry or upset with everyone around me, but the truth is I was starving myself. I starved myself of food, healthy relationships, personal happiness, and started spiraling into someone I hated. I let my self loathing take over my life and fell into turmoil, I was no longer myself and honestly didn’t even know if I ever was to begin with.

I lost sight of who I was for a long time, but I decided finally that this needed to end, that I needed to change. Once I made the decision, I put it to action. Through personal development and a healthy relationship I was able to turn my life around, I was able to start being the person that I had always wanted to be, but couldn’t let myself become before. I’ve continued to change over the course of four years now, to constantly be myself no matter what, to embrace who I am and not try to be someone else’s idea of perfect. To become a more confident and beautiful version of myself, to eat….and eat A LOT! But also to LIVE. To be happy within myself and extend that warmth on to others.

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Through this learning process I have discovered that we are who we choose to be, and I chose to be what no one else – including past me – would ever believe I could become: completely happy being myself and loving the skin I’m in. The struggle was well worth it, and I am proud of who I am today. While I will always still struggle with what I see in the mirror, I know that inside I am the most beautiful that I have ever been, and that’s the part that shines through any mirror around. This journey made me strong, and I will only get stronger with time.

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If I can overcome my insecurities and see a better version of myself in the mirror, and finally feel complete and comfortable within myself, then I know it is possible for other people out there who suffer from B.D.D., together we can overcome this image. We can become healthy, both in body and mind.

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7 Days of Clean Eating

7 Day Free Clean Eating PhotoI have been busting my hump so far with this 7 Days of Clean Eating Challenge that I have going on! Since it’s a completely FREE group I figured I would extend the invitation out to any bloggers out there who are looking to jump start their health & fitness journey’s!! Like I said a few weeks ago, big things have been happening here at No Limits! With the start of my own fitness coaching business, I have been in non-stop marketing mode when it comes to offering my services!

Here’s a little rundown on what to expect in the Clean Eating Group:

  • 7 Day Meal Plan
  • Grocery Lists
  • Support & Accountability
  • FREE coaching
  • At-home exercises
  • Healthy Recipes
  • Tips on meal prepping

If you are interested in joining us, we are on Day 2 as of today! Follow the link below to register 🙂 I have also put the Facebook group link below, go ahead and add yourself to the group and I will approve the entrance!

Register >>here<< & Facebook group  link >>here<<

Hope to see you in the group!! Let the Pre-Giving Clean Eating Begin!

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The Top 10 Hacks to Being More Productive In Your Day

Blog Post 10.22.15

I don’t know about you, but there are some days where I just feel like I NEVER get anything accomplished in my day! Other’s I get all jittery and just jump right into my to-do list and feel like I can conquer everything on my list! Well what makes these days so different from one another? How can you be more productive in your every day life? I’ve compile this nifty list to answer these questions!

  1. Evaluate you priorities. This is very important to staying productive, take about 10 minutes or so to list out your to-do list and examine who or what is important to you on that list. Keep your list on hand so you can view it frequently and stay on track, always make sure the big things come FIRST. The amount of time you spend on something should be relative to how important it is in your life. Life is short and every second is precious, don’t waste your time on the little things that don’t matter.
  2. Set a timer or time frames and stick to them. Setting a time frame can be the best way to keep yourself motivated as well as productive. For instance, I know that my workouts take up thirty minutes of my day so I always start them at 3:30 in the afternoon knowing I’ll be finished by 4:00 pm. Plan out your time and stick to it! Limiting your time on seemingly endless tasks like emails and Facebook helps a lot too. When you tell yourself that you only have a set amount a time to accomplish a task, it is a better motivator to get it done and not to procrastinate!
  3. Set concrete goals and write them down. When you sit and actually write out clear and specific goals, it is more beneficial to staying on track to reach those goals in a more timely fashion. Set long-term and short-term goals, then break down those goals into manageable day-to-day tasks. All goals that you set for yourself should also have an end date! I have a chart I utilize with my goals on paper and have them posted in our bedroom, so I am reminded each day of what my ultimate goal is that I am trying to achieve.
  4. Use daily checklists. For some reason I just LOVE the feeling of crossing off an item on my to-do list. A daily to-do list keeps you focused in spite of all of your daily distractions. Do not go overboard with your to-do list though, make sure that you can actually be accountable to complete everything on your daily list. I found a little notepad at Staples that I’ve found to be really useful! Blog Post Photo 10.22.15
  5. Wake up early. This will be everyone’s LEAST favorite item on this hacks list, because I can definitely say  that I was never a morning person! But it’s gotten to the point now where I really physically have no idea how to sleep in! Even on the weekends we still wake up automatically around 7 am, granted sometimes we’ll force ourselves to go back to sleep, but we’re still up and doing something by 8 am. Look at it this way, just consider how much your life could change a year from now if you just wake up thirty minutes earlier? You can use that extra thirty minutes working towards your most important long-term goals. Every study that I have ever read confirms that you are more productive in first thing in the morning, use that peace and quiet to complete your most important tasks and you will never regret missing that extra sleep.
  6. Turn off electronics. This might seem to be an obvious item that goes hand-in-hand with maintaining the ultimate productivity levels. Now, I set a time frame and organize my social media posts to be automatically posted using Hoot Suite so I don’t get distracted trolling through my newsfeed on a daily basis. Some businesses require social media interaction, which is completely FINE! But in order to continue on with your daily list, you need to cut out your distractions. Utilize apps like Hoot Suite and set up your posts as a part of your items on your to-do-list, then once that is set get off your phone! When you’re writing your blog posts, or emails, or papers for school, do NOT play a bunch of Netflix shows in the background. You cannot do your best work when you are accidentally typing out an episode of Archer…trust me, that does NOT make for a good thesis paper when you type out “LAAANNNNNAAAA.” It might make for a good laugh with your professor, but only for five minutes before you fail completely.
  7. Make it interesting/fun. This one might sound weird, but it really works for me when it comes to doing something that I completely dread doing. Laundry for instance is my nemesis, I absolutely LOATHE folding laundry, so to get me through it I’ll try making it into a game. I usually will set a timer for myself to make it a challenge, with each week the time gets shorter and shorter. It absolutely sucks if I go over my time limit since I feel like I’ve lost at my own game. I also use a points system for socks, I’ll match the socks and try to toss them into the drawer. For everyone I make I get a point, and for every one I miss I lose a point. Call me a dork, but hey at least it gets done this way!
  8. Change your mood. Your mood completely reflects the outcome of your day. Some days it’s understandable not to be in the best mood possible, but once you change your attitude your entire day can be turned around! Be optimistic and think highly of yourself and be happy! Your productivity is heightened exponentially when you have the ability to change your outlook. You are more likely to accomplish your goals more quickly, than if you view everything with a negative attitude! I utilize personal development (audio books/YouTube/books) to help me stay positive and stay focused to achieve my goals!
  9. Do not half-ass multiple things, whole ass one thing. Multi-tasking might sound like a good idea, but the reality of it is that it’s not at all. Focus your time and energy on one thing at a time, it makes for a better outcome with what you are working on. When you accomplish one thing from start to finish, you are reaped with a better reward of self-accomplishment and are more inclined to move onto the next item with a better attitude. On top of that, you are less likely to make mistakes when you focus on one thing at a time instead of four. You will be more satisfied completing one item at a time and doing it correctly!
  10. Take a break! You cannot be expected to work productively constantly if you burnout and don’t take a break for yourself just to breathe. Taking a quick 3-5 minute break every 90 minutes or so is sure to help your brain refocus. Stand up, stretch, go get some water, a breath of fresh air. then sit back down and get back into it. Do not force yourself to power through an entire day of work without taking a few minutes to yourself to regroup! You will find that you are much more productive and on task when you sit back down after that break.

So go and make your days more productive! Stay positive and remember to breathe, we all have A LOT to get done in day!

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The Top 10 Hacks to Stay Motivated to Workout

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Do you ever see those fitness pages on Facebook or Instagram? You just can’t help but wonder how exactly these people are all staying so on track and are so focused, to obtain the results they do in their health and fitness journey. You do so much research, you try to be as consistent as you POSSIBLY can be when it comes to working out, but you lose your stride after you plateau, or stop seeing changes in your physique, or life just gets in the way…

Trust me, we have ALL been there before, and while I am still working towards my fitness goals, I will not be deterred from what is rightfully mine! So, to inspire others that you ARE NOT ALONE, I have created this top 10 list of motivational hacks that have really come to use for me in the past three months post wedding. But it all starts with the FIRST step, which is your desire to WANT to change. It’s all true when they say it’s a lifestyle change, you have to WANT to change your life. These hacks will push you along the way after that decision has been made, we all need the push sometimes, so let’s get to it!

  1. Exercise even if you are short on time. Even if you only have 15 minutes, exercise anyways! A short gym routine or at-home circuit is honestly better than nothing. Pinterest has thousands of quick at-home circuits that you can utilize within that short amount of time, or you can even find them on Youtube! You will feel ten times better after that short workout than you would have if you just brushed it off…again.
  2. Invest in a fitness tracker, such as FitBit. While some of these trackers can be expensive (like $100-$130), there are also a lot of free phone apps that will actually track your steps for you. Most androids come with that feature already built in. This feature is not as accurate as the more expensive wrist bands, but it will save you some money while also showing you how much you ACTUALLY are walking each day. If you’re like me and have a desk job, then that’s not much. On average you should be walking at least 10,000 steps a day!
  3. Mix up your routine. If your fitness routine doesn’t bore you, then you are more likely to stick with it. Do interval training one day, yoga another, give pole fitness a try. We’re all not made of money, always check Groupon for fitness classes around you! Get involved and find your calling, mine just so happened to be found in my own living room!
  4. Focus on how good you will feel after your workout, rather than skipping it. Some days you just don’t feel like working out, we’ve all been there. I’ve had plenty of times where I’m exhausted after work and just want to relax and cuddle up on the couch with a jar of Nutella (counter-productive). Think of how awesome and awake you will feel post workout, embrace the endorphin high and you’re one step closer to your fitness goals.
  5. Don’t wait for a special occasion to get in shape. This method of thinking is unrealistic and will only disappoint in the long run. Not only will this effect your moods, but it will kill your self-esteem trying to reach a goal in such a short amount of time. Fitness is a lifestyle, not an exercise in vanity.
  6. Eat! Real food. Don’t try to restrict your diet right off the bat, you will automatically lose the motivation to continue right there. If you love pasta (like I do) then eat it! Of course you don’t want to over-indulge, eat within moderation. If you swear off of all of the foods you love, you will only be miserable and binge at a later time and then feel awful, only to repeat the cycle over and over again. Keep everything you LOVE in moderation! Don’t swear off of it!
  7. Exercise when you’re sore. If you’re just getting into working out, of course you will be sore afterwards! You need to continue pushing through to start the recovery process for your muscles. Sitting on your ass isn’t going to help with your recovery process, you need to keep going and stay ACTIVE in order to build and tone. Keep protein on hand to assist with this process, such as Whey protein.
  8. Get sleep. The more you workout the more you will want a good night’s sleep. It might seem like an impossible task to add working out into your already busy schedule, but it’s not. The things you can accomplish post workout are amazing, and consistently moving up until your bed time will only assist with sleeping through the night.
  9. Focus on how you feel instead of how you want to look. This is a very hard task to accomplish to stay motivated, but it helps to keep you encouraged to push forward. Working out leads to increased energy and a positive attitude all around. Focus on that good feeling rather than looking good and you’ll see results quickly.
  10. Remember that the main goal isn’t to run a 5k every day, it’s just to do something. Even if you aren’t feeling up for the gym today or popping in a workout video, the goal is to stay active and at least do 5 – 10 minutes of something! Whether it be a quick set of jumping jacks, squats, chair holds, what-have-you, chances are that once you start you will be much more inclined to go longer.

So get out there or stay in, either way just stay positive and keep pushing. Your motivation comes from within and through healthy habits that better influence your everyday life. Once you start implementing these into your life, you will see drastic changes into the quality of your lifestyle.

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I Completed Number 6!

I would just like to finally announce that I have completed item number 6 on my goals for 2015! For those of you who are new around here and completely lost check out my goals list here. This has been one of my biggest feats when it comes to health and fitness, while the lower body isn’t to my standards as of yet, my upper body is finally there! I was never that girl who had any upper body to brag about, I just had stick arms and honestly I myself was a stick. I’ve been looking at my time hop lately and just sighing over how thin I was roughly 4 years ago now, but then I have to remind myself that I wasn’t healthy in the slightest. I skipped meals on a daily basis, I only ever did cardio when I did work out, and I never took care of myself the way I should have. It seems to be a recurring story with everyone these days! It doesn’t help the fact that I was made fun of a lot when I was younger for being the chunky girl who had a lot of baby fat to grow out of. For that reason I will always have to constantly remind myself that I am not “fat,” and that’s why I hate body shaming to this day, as it has only gotten worse.

But I’m not here to talk about that today! This is a happy post about achieving your goals! I’ve been working out consistently since January and pushing myself to the extremes…well not like competition extremes, but for someone who had never been able to bench press the bar…it was pretty intense. I’ve completely transformed my upper body and I am so excited about it! It definitely made for awesome wedding photos to have a nicely shaped up back, shoulders, and of course arms! Speaking of wedding photos, I need to post our amazing pin-spired wedding photos here soon! Check out my gainz in the pic below!

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*This photo was originally posted on my Instagram page, which you can get to by clicking on the photo*

Until next time!

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Why Gaining Weight Is AWESOME

I have become a gym junkie. Well I don’t think I’ve strayed too far into that category yet, but I have officially passed the barrier. I always considered those people who went to the gym everyday just straight out of their minds, and on top of that they were eating healthier too! Just trying to show off to the rest of us “normal folk” when in reality that’s not the case.

I never actually believed them when they always said it’s a lifestyle change, and a choice. But it really is. I have officially been going to the gym now everyday of the week for the past 7 weeks, and being perfectly honest I’ve taken about 3 rest days maybe in that time frame. Those three days I completely HATED myself. I felt GUILTY for not going to the gym, and not because I felt like it was an obligation, but because I felt like I was cheating myself. The gym has become an everyday responsibility, something like paying my bills, the only difference being that I WANT to go to the gym every single day, whereas bills eh, no I don’t necessarily want to pay those, because I mean come on who does?

In the past, yes I have always tried to stick with it but never could and I know now that it was because I didn’t have the mind set yet. My drive wasn’t enough, my goals seemed too far fetched and it was discouraging right off the bat. One day something clicked and it no longer became about proving myself to other’s, it no longer became a chore to get fit and eat healthier. That day, it became about ME. I wanted to eat healthier for myself, I wanted to get fit for my DAMN SELF, I wanted to PROVE to MYSELF that I could do it. Have I reached my ultimate goals yet, no, but have I progressed further, HELL YES.

Never in my life would I have thought I could even bench press the bar, which is 45 lbs, not to mention now being able to bench 75 lbs, which I consider a HUGE achievement. I can run a mile in 9 minutes, something I haven’t been able to do since track in my freshmen year of high school. I am no longer winded for doing 2 miles of cardio, then my weight training immediately after. I have pushed myself and in doing that I expanded my mind. I have no mental restrictions, the gym is my savior and my motivation. Not only did I break past that mental barrier, but I have also gained my confidence in myself back. b3537b7b29660fdaf0042a7f1554a1aa

Every woman has her own body complexes, mine being that my baby-bearing hips are just ridiculously too wide, but as of late I realized yeah my hips add some mega curves, but they are all muscle. I can’t help that fact, I can only embrace them, because honestly they add to my physique. I have learned more about my body in the past 7 weeks than I have in my 22 years. Not only that, but I have learned that EVERYONE moves at their own pace, and while my achievements are minuscule compared to some other people’s, who the HELL cares. I’m seeing the difference, and yesterday I realized just how much of a difference.9dbae6fdf2b646b1e6dcb6eb18823921

I haven’t weighed myself in over a year, to which my last weigh in was maybe 115 pounds, basically at 5’7 I was a stick. Lacking in curves, at least in my personal opinions, I was the definition of skinny fat. Last night I had the boys grab the scale from the men’s room at the gym and literally mouth gaping was depressed when it read 116 and became determined to gain at least 20 pounds in muscle mass. But something was off, just that day Shane had picked me up and commented that I was much heavier, to which most women would be upset over but I was PROUD….when I told Shane my results he knew something was off….and it was. I got on the scale on the carpet, which skewed my results, moved the scale to the tile and BOOM, there read 139.6! I have NEVER been more proud of myself in my entire life. 

My happiness to that weigh-in confused the boys to no end, as that would scare many women, and honestly a year ago it would have scared the shit out of me. But to know that I have put on that much weight really makes me happy. While I still have some areas that need more definition and leaning out, I know that this lifestyle change has made me healthier, both physically and mentally, and that’s something to be proud of.

Happy Wednesday ya’ll!

xoxo, Bee

Throwback Thursday: Chicken Salad Recipe

Hey all! A new recipe has been added to the Feeding Frenzy page, check it out here!20141230_184035_resized_1 So many things going on right now, from taking on wedding planning, and to now ALSO in the process of building a house, I’m just a huge ball of stress right about now. On a side note though, I finally got my centerpieces together! Now, just have to get all kinds of deposits in, as well as get the rest of the centerpieces…UGH.

And yes, that does mean my little glass-stained bottles project was, well for lack of other words a HUGE waste, but never fear, I’ve decided to use the ones I did create as home decor instead…so I guess it wasn’t entirely a waste 🙂 Along with the centerpieces I finalized on, I’ll be sharing a TON of tips and tricks I’ve come across during this whole wedding planning process. Oh, and the lovely invites operation….please give my hands the strength to keep on addressing these invites until they are done!

Happy Throwback Thursday!!

xoxo, Bee